Wednesday, February 22, 2012

I'm not an organized person, but I like the idea of lists.

This morning I am thankful for:
-the sun
-an education (even when I don't want to go to class)
-my phone, which serves as my alarm clock
-teachers who love what they do
-enthusiastic classmates (because I am tired)
-the strength the Lord gives me

I stayed up in the lobby of my dorm until 3:30 last night editing my blog. Stupid. And then I couldn't find my keys and no one was awake, including my roommate, so I decided to sleep in the lobby. I fell asleep around 4 and woke up right before my 9:00 class. I'm wearing what I fell asleep in, have not brushed my teeth or hair, and I do not have any of my notebooks/binders.

It's really quite humorous.

I am thankful for the Lord and His sovereignty. I am finding strength and joy in Him.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

How Deep the Father's Love

Okay, so I never actually started blogging. Oops. But I'm going to start now and hopefully be consistent with my posts. We'll see.

"How Deep the Father's Love"

Listen here.

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom


This is one of my all-time favorite songs. I don't think I fully grasp the depth of God's love. One of the most well-known bible verses is John 3:16. Honestly, I often recite this without thinking about what it really and truly means. It says, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him shoud not perish but have eternal life." How beautiful is that?! And this song talks about just that.

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure


God's love was SO deep that He sacrificed His one and only Son to make sinners, like me, righteous. Wow. One definition of wretch is "a person of despicable or base character." Rough. That basically means that we don't deserve anything good. And that's true. As a sinner, the only thing I deserve is Hell. That's what makes what God did so amazing. I did absolutely nothing to earn His favor. He sent Jesus to die because He loves us and He ultimately wanted His glory to be shown.

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory


The word searing means, "marked by extreme intensity, harshness, or emotional power." I don't think that definition even begins to describe what Jesus' death was like. The Father could not even look at His Son because of the sin what was brought upon Him. My sin. He was wounded for my sins and I am saved because of that. "But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed." -Isaiah 53:5

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,

Call out among the scoffers

I normally break down sometime during the start of this verse. I am mocking God when I sin against Him. Before I was a believer, I was no better than those in the crowd of people who watched Him die on the cross. And as a believer now, I still sin and the only thing that makes me different from non-believers is that I have Jesus.

(I don't know if I'm making any sense at all...it's 1:45 am.)

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished


My sin held Jesus on the cross. My sin. Wow, that is humbling. His death brought me life. "For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified." -Hebrews 10:14 His death only had to happen once. In the Old Testament, priests had to offer numerous sacrifices, over and over, and they were still unable to take away sin. But Christ offered a SINGLE sacrifice for sin and then sat down at the right hand of God because it was finished. Once and for all. Amazing.

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection


The Bible says a lot about boasting. I don't have a right to boast about anything but Christ and what He did on the cross (Gal. 6:14). Even Paul who suffered greatly for the sake of the gospel said he would only boast of the things that showed his weakness (2 Cor. 11:30). Paul says that if we know the gospel, there's no way we can be boastful, so we must preach the gospel (1 Cor. 9:16)!

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom


I struggle to accept God's grace sometimes. I can't figure out why He would want to take away my sin and give me life when I have done absolutely nothing to deserve it. So I think this part of the song expresses how my heart feels sometimes. I know I should gain nothing, but amazingly I am saved because of His sacrifice!

I feel like the English language is not sufficient. I cannot think of any words that would properly express how amazed I am at the depth of God's love. Father, thank you for sending your Son to live a perfect life and die as the perfect sacrifice to fulfill your plan and die for my sin. Thank you for the gift of eternal life; salvation. I want to live to bring You praise because of what You have done for me!


His grace really is amazing.